Sometimes events happen in our lives that are beyond our control, that seriously test our strength and character, or that try to take us “down”. I have had a few recently, but this one takes the price, as we would say in Danish!
Two weeks ago, I journeyed back to Denmark to be at my mother’s side. She had gone into Intensive care on a Tuesday, after being found on the floor. Friday I boarded a plane and headed to Denmark. Arriving Saturday (due to the time change) and got to be by her side for two days. The greatest gift was that she knew I was there. She reached out for me after they awoke her, smiled and we hugged! Unfortunately, she never got to speak to me due to the respirator that she was hooked up to. She passed early monday morning at 2:10 am. I got to be there for the last hour, to help guide her to the other side, telling her how loved she is, how thankful I am that she’s been my mother, how much I have loved and appreciated her! Thanking her for giving birth to me. Telling her that it was okay to let go! This picture says it all! (Artist Unknown)
Mom, so thankful I got to be there when you drew your last breath as you were there when I drew my first!
The nursing staff and doctors at the hospital where she was at were so amazing and supportive! I got to stay in the hospital’s small guest/student quarter apartments while I was there. I can’t begin to express how thankful I am to these kind hearted people who helped me through this most heart wrenching time of my life! I know that it is a process of life that we must all go through.
My parents had me late…at 40, so I knew that their day would come, but still it was unexpected! Despite the pain and loss, knowing that my mother doesn’t have to suffer or live in a nursing home, depending on others, this was her worst fear, is of great comfort! She never knew that they found that she had (undetected/diagnosed) lung cancer. Nor did she find out, as far as I know, that my uncle passed away the day after that she had been hospitalized! I dedicate this beautiful song to my mom by James Blunt: